Sidelined

Where have I been? Well - I guess you’d say, I’ve been sidelined. 🏥 
Last month, during dance, I tore the ACL in my “good” knee. (Yes. This is the same injury I got playing soccer.) Because of circumstances and insurance, I opted to have the surgery sooner, rather than later.

Surgery came this past Wednesday and I’m told it went well, and I am doing very well. Credit to my prehab and fitness activities prior to the injury. Yay, core strength.🤕 

And while it doesn’t hurt so bad physically, it really hurts spiritually. I gotta say - I am trying to make sense of it. This is a hard spot to be in. I’m worried about the long road ahead as a single mom with a physical job and I’m worried about relying on others to help. That part might be the hardest.

🗓 2019 has been a tough year. I feel like I’ve burdened a lot of my friends all year long; beyond what is acceptable. So it’s scary to ask for more. 😔 

Today, when I felt my loneliest and saddest and cried openly about it - my youngest walked in and said, “You have three children. You are never alone. You have us and me - your favorite.” I laughed through tears and they came in and watched tv with me and ate Doritos. And that’s all it took for me to shake off the sadness and start focusing on the good.

💐The good for sure has been in the Village around me: My love, Rob,  who saw me through the week and then some. Seriously, he’s been the best nurse ever and even lent me his family. Also, in my TURN instructors who are holding down the fort teaching classes, minding the studio and handling our communications. And to Dave, Todd and Tina who are guest teaching, I can't thank you enough. 👭 
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And to my other homies who are giving me moral support. I love you and uber thank you.
 
2019 can suck it. Ready for 2020. 🙏🏼